You live, you learn.

Have you ever felt like you just had a big slap on your face just by seeing someone’s act or listening someone’s story?

My friend is going to buy an iPad. The news bitchslapped me right at that moment.

I’ve been wanting one for quite a long time. It’s not like i’m incapable to buy one. I just never had enough will to save some money to buy it. As an impulsive buyer that i am, i don’t have that kind of determination to hold myself a bit for a while.

She told me that she gotta save for two months to buy it. I thought about myself and the possibility of me going crazy in two months for the sake of iPad. I wonder.

Am i really able to do that?

I had a talk with someone long time ago, about the strength of will to wait for something bigger. The ability to be in control of myself.The ability to understand what i really want and what i really need. The ability to understand my own needs, that i can live my life better without some things i thought i really needed.

I erased my shopping list.

I live and learn, and i become who i am today.

I notice how the journey of my 20 years are full with things that i learned from the others. I didn’t have a chance to continue my study, but life doesn’t stop teaching me about how to be who i want to be. People tell me things, i learn from them. I do things, i learn by doing.

In the end, it’s all coming back to me, whether i have enough will to keep on learning or not. 

Pay more attention to life, it won’t make you less rich.

"Tetapkanlah pikiran kami selalu melangit, dan dengan hati yg terus membumi."

- @Pidibaiq

"If life doesn’t teach you love, then love cannot teach you life."

- @pinot

And let me share you something.

We don’t need to share same interests. We just have to understand each other’s passion about things. I know, someday i’ll be the one you’re proud of. I know, someday we’ll be true. You’re not stopping me. You have a faith that i will always come back to you.

And we’re moving forward, and that’s why i’m with you. And i’m not afraid to be myself, because you never judge me for what i am. And i’m not scared to face the truth, because it brings us together. And even when people laugh at us, we know that we’re going to curve the biggest smile. And i love you, dear, or i wouldn’t tell you so.

"Did you know behind every beautiful girl, there is a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong?"

- Dea Soelistyo

To give is not to expect anything back.

Some people, including me, have this kind of rule of take-and-give.

If you want to receive something, learn to give something first.

You give something to someone, because you want him/her to do the same. You treat someone nice, because you want him/her to be nice at you. You smile to people, because you want them to smile back at you. But trust me, this way of thinking is not right. You put expectation into this.

Expectation is the only way to disappointment

When people don’t do things you have already expected before, you’re disappointed. Sometimes, you even blame them for this annoying feeling because they don’t do things like you want them to.

I’ve been so nice at him, and he’s still acting like a jerk.
Why was she bitching at me? I never treated her bad before.
I gave him my fave book and he doesn’t want to lend me his dictionary?What a fag.

Right. You’re the one who started it anyway.

To give is not to expect anything back.

Should i explain about it any further? Trust me, it’s easier when you put it that way.

"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."

- Oscar Wilde, De Profundis, 1905 (via coffeeromance)

teider:

“Just admit it, you don’t want it because you think its going to suck, and you don’t want anyone else to get it because you might be wrong.”