Once you find some flaw on something, it’s pretty hard not to noticing it first before anything else.
Maybe it’s easier for me to notice that my laptop has some dent on the right edge. Maybe it’s easier for me to notice some pimples, even when they’re fading slowly. Maybe it’s easier for me to hear that wrong part from that band, played on the recorded live show on youtube.
Noticing is easy. Accepting and move forward is not.
When people are meant to settle down, i really hope they are not doing it to negative things.
I choose to do something about those flaws. Sometimes it takes a while for me to finally do it, but i’d rather do something than expecting miracles to change things the way i want them to be. I just can’t let myself dwell in despondency.
Such a tense person, i am.